A blab here and a blab there!

I am trying to hang on so badly. I don't think anyone even knows how tired I  feel sometimes. It's hard to construct a question about something you don't understand. Its like if time just laughs me in the face. It keeps running away from me. In order to be proficient your mind has to be at ease. I hate letting people down but it seems like it's all I have been doing lately.