Blabbing about feelings!

I really feel trapped. It's like I am living someone else's life. I don't mean to be resentful or anything. It's just that... I feel like everything is being hurdled at me all at once and I can't stop  it. This is not what I envisioned my life to be at this age when I was younger. It's like everything is at a stand still. I am not moving at all. I'm just stuck. My mind seem so blank right now that it is preventing me from completing really important tasks and in a timely manner. How I just feel like going to the seawall, standing in the breeze and just scream. I sense that I am slowly losing myself or something. It's like all of the emotions are there and I don't know which one to feel.